Saturday, August 29, 2009
Yes, I saw John Kennedy in person when he was campaigning in Ohio. Our family took a vacation trip to Washington, D.C. that summer, saw all of the sights, and toured the White House. Life was much simpler in 1961. Then, only two years later we all stared at the TV for three days and mourned in disbelief with the rest of the world. I saw Lee Harvey Oswald shot and killed on live TV! It's hard to even imagine all of that now; but, it is still as vivid as it was then.
I have the same birthday as Ted Kennedy, although he was quite a bit older. On one hand, Pisces have the pleasure of enjoying everyones' happiest times, but on the other, the inability to turn off emotions when it comes to other's pain. It's rough sometimes—extreme empathy. But it is the reason that he was so beloved by his family, friends and colleagues—in spite of his often times regrettable behaviour. He was a "forgive and forget" kind of a guy and that is a rare trait.
Elizabeth Taylor is a Pisces. She has loved and lost, many times throughout her life. Now, she can no longer bear public pain; so chooses seclusion from it. Her friend, Michael Jackson would have commemorated another birthday today. She felt his pain. I felt sorry for him—I could relate completely. Hounded until the end and unable to rest. I get it.
It's all too sad.
May there be peace one day.
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
As we get to that age where close relatives have died, schoolmates are dying and even old boyfriends are nevermore--that's starting to feel scary. Lately, celebrities are dropping like flies. All the money in the world can't buy more time. Maybe, all the money in the world, makes things worse.
So, the day that I knew would eventually come, is finally here, and I am powerless to contain the inevitable admission: "That's it, I can't take it anymore."
I want a fully functioning life!! I'm not willing to give up my hopes and dreams and plans. I'm also not willing to give up my NY apartment, so I have to make some tough decisions.
Here's some advice:
- Get your cramped little NY apartment organized. It has become nothing more than a large storage unit because there is way too much stuff for the space.
- Start packing "future use" items into boxes, to be put into an actual storage unit.
- No more fooling around.
- Do the work that needs to be done and actually accomplish something.
The clutter is choking the life out of my creativity and severely jeopardizing my sanity.
OK. Now I feel better and I'll keep you up-to-date on my progress.